A Long Road to No Where

I feel like everything I do is for nothing. I am a SAHM and I love it. I feel like it gives Keegan and me some time to be together and I know everything little thing about him. I am looking for a job. I spend an hour a day on the computer looking and still I am getting no where. So why can't people just leave me alone and let me do what I do best....BE A MOM. I am currently a student and I am going to school in hopes that one day i will own a daycare. That's all I want to do.

Easter Sunday I went to the emergency room with bad pains in m left side. I found out that I was pregnant. I was so happy it was a SHOCK but a great one. Then come to find out I was threatening to miscarry. I did all I could to recover and sit and take it easy but I guess that was not enough. Wednesday night I lost the baby.  I was very devastated. No i didn't know what the baby would have been and I didn't feel the baby kick but it was wonderful to know I was going to have a baby. Now that dream has been squashed for the time being. Through all of this pain and grief I found peace with the Lord. I truly believe that Lord was speaking to me through this tragedy. I was not going to church. I was not praying like I should and I definitely was not reading my Bible. I am the only one who can change this so I am trying my hardest to find a church for Keegan and me.

I think now my husband and I will start trying to get pregnant with another baby. It wont be easy but I really want it.